Friday, July 29, 2011

falling in love again.fullstop.

i think...(a long pause) i'm in love with more than a guy. *sighs* for you-know-who, you know it might be a bad sign but trust me, this isn't what i planned for our future.you are a nice guy well not most of the time. but still you are my boyfriend and i don't think you even realized that this post is even exists or even this blog. i love you yes i do since the first time i saw you clearly in front of me. but at that moment, things are kinda blur. and i have this feeling that you don't even care about me in the first place. yeah, considering my boyish attitude and whatsoever. but when we get into relationship, we were happy very very happy indeed in the first few months.

it's like i'm the sunshine and you are my flower that makes me happy all the time. we enjoy our moments together. cherished them together in our heart. but then, i realized its started to fade away. which is clearly this isn't a good thing. *sighs*

he came to my life without us knowing it. I'm sorry. i truly am. but somehow i couldn't resist his presence in my life. in between our relationship. you might think i'm an asshole. but who on earth can resist JOHNNY DEPP?

but no matter what happen, i won't leave you just like that. you stole my heart,gramps. and i couldn't resist you too. you are my reality, my presence and my future. Johnny Depp, he's only fantasy. :)

*smirk*


that's it. *waves goodbye*

Sunday, July 24, 2011

Heck Yeah!

Alhamdulillah, selamat dah menjejakkan kaki di bumi Kuala Lumpur. *senyum* Awal-awal lagi aku dah prepare list apa aku nak buat kat sini. Hoyeah! Nanti aku ada masa kang aku list down kan la yer? Sekarang beta nak masuk beradu dulu. hehehe. Night2 u ollss.. 

Friday, July 8, 2011

Bahasa Perindu

pertamanya, aku hanya manusia biasa yang mempunyai kemampuan yang agak terbatas. namun, aku mampu untuk berusaha sedaya upaya aku setakat yang aku mampu. aku mampu bertahan sekuat mana yang aku mampu. aku mampu bangkit sekali lagi walaupun sudah berjuta kali jatuh. 
keduanya, aku tahu siapa penghuni-penghuni hati aku. aku tahu siapa yang aku sayang. aku tahu siapa yang sentiasa menyinarkan hari-hari suram aku. aku tahu insan mana yang selalu hadir untuk aku di saat aku goyah. 
ketiganya, ya bahasa perindu ni aku sebenarnya bercakap tentang kau andainya kau tidak mengetahuinya. terpulang pada kau, apa yang ingin kau katakan selepas ini. aku lemah, ya aku mengakuinya. tapi, aku juga kuat dan mampu untuk bertahan hingga saat ini. walaupun jauh, namun aku tahu aku siapa, aku tahu hati aku untuk siapa. aku tahu apa impian aku. apa yang aku inginkan. 
aku juga tahu erti desakan, aku juga kadangkala mengerti lakonanmu. namun, aku tidak mampu membohongi hati ini yang ikhlas mengukir nama mu di dalamnya. walaupun sudah banyak kali dilukai segalanya. 
aku sebenarnya rindu, aku sebenarnya rindu yang teramat pada diri kamu. rindu yang sukar aku luahkan dengan kata-kata. hanya mata hati sahaja yang mampu berkata-kata. ingin sekali aku ulang kembali detik-detik lalu. ingin sekali aku pandang mata mu yang aku kira sangat menenangkan jiwaku. 
MR. S,  i rindu dekat you.
sekian. *sebak* 

Monday, July 4, 2011

*counting days*

sekarang,
tiap saat aku mengira waktu,
saban hari aku menunggu ia tiba,
penuh kesabaran.

Insya-Allah,
bahagia itu akan hadir juga. 

After quite a long while.

a night that is supposed to be filled with good activities turned out to be a very great nice night in a cozy place accompanied by favorite songs by live bands. it's been a long while since the last visit. companies haven't changed so much except for more people joining the club. *smile*

bestfriend :) a perfect companion at The Cottage. 

partner in crime. *gelak jahat*

yes! i know. i'm getting chubbier.

nampak kan? dulu ktorang kurus..sekarang? apacer?


I'm so lazy and malas to update more. so, yeah. something happened but somehow some things are better left unspoken :)